My pillar

You are my true north, my pillar of strength, my one true constant.
I don’t know how on earth I would survive without you. You’ve been with me through the birth of our children, death of my father, the death of your father, my favorite uncles, my very favorite brother, the near death then subsuquint death of my mom, the death and the family problems caused by the death of your own brother. Fights with our children, the disconnection and chastisement by our own grown children, the unfair treatment of several family members... everything!
Now, I have friends and classmates that are dying and it scares me to death ( no pun intended!) that you will leave me, unexpectedly! We’ve already had that scare once ( twice if you count me almost leaving you when you had your knee surgery and my gall bladder kicked out a boulder and shut my system down!) and I’m scared, I’m scared of being alone, I’m scared of what will happen to me. I’ll become a hermit or worse, I’ll want to die along side you. Which, to me, is the better option!
After all the years we’ve been together, the sentences we finish, the shared thoughts and dreams... I am no where near ready to lose you! We have so much more to do together! Don’t forget you still owe me a trip to Hawaii! We have to have a chance to live in the home we’ve been building together!
You! You are the one thing in life I can count on and I want to be able to count on you till we are well into our 80’s or 90’s! Please be there for me! I promise I’ll be there for you as long as you want me there by your side!
My love forever