I let go

I realize that I am no longer needed as a parent. It is sad, I thought that once you are a mother you were always a mother, but my kids have their own lives and needs and they do not include me. I've let it go, or rather I'm trying to let it go! I've pulled away and they haven't even noticed. I've not seen my grand babies since February? I never even got a phone call for my birthday, a text was supposed to suffice. I've had surgery on my hand and no one has cared to check up on me to see how things are going. No one ever asks about the cabin or our plans. I feel lost and alone. I'm ready to move away to lesson the pain. They will have to make an effort to see us in the future and if they don't, then I guess we're on our own and we raised ingrates! I am sick to my stomach with the feeling of being not wanted or needed. I am done offering anything to them, they reject everything I have to offer. I'm tempted to change our will to disclude each of them and leave everything to charity.  I'm trying to let these feeling go, to be alright with them but it is so hard to know that your own child doesn't want anything to do with you and won't even make it easy for us to see our grand babies, as much as the kids love to be here, their parents won't let us have them,  I quit, I've quit before but this time is it. I offered my most precious belongings to them, my paintings, and they don't want them! Wow! What a blow to the heart!  I have Bob, I have love and that's all I need, the black cloud that hovers over me is put there by my children...I let them go, they are no longer going to be that darkness in my life that makes me so miserable. I will have other things that bring me happiness, it surrounds me and is waiting for me to be open enough to find bliss!